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Hey there!

Just wanted to post to let any one know I don't use this site to blog any more (obviously). I have a personal website for my Christian Coaching Practice, and that is where you can find my current blogs. I coach people in Quarter-life, meaning anyone transitioning into adulthood. Ya know, the point in life where you have to figure out who you are, what you are going to do with your life, where you will live, how you will pay back student loans, if you will get married, and the long list that follows. There are TONS of decisions to make in this period of our lives. I would love to help you navigate this stage, make the changes you desire to make, and live the life God has called you to. :)

You can check out my website at www.hisrelentlesslove.com and my Facebook page at www.facebook.com/hisrelentlesslove

Sending love your way,
Nicole

P.S. I got married! So my new last name is Cascio. :)

You're going to die.

Hi guys! Sorry for the rough title of this blog. eek. I know it is hard to read that and come to terms with that truth, but anyway something has been on my heart lately and I am excited to share it. The other day, God gave me a clear picture of something detrimental that is going on in our world. Its such a sneaky thing though, because at first glance, what I'm about to share seems to be something good and positive, rather then bad and potentially deadly.


Before getting started I want you to imagine and really envision this scenario:  


You are walking on the beach one evening and you see something sticking out of the sand near the rocks. You walk over and dig up the mysterious object. It's a box that looks to be deteriorating, corroding and frail but when you open it, you see there are jewels and diamonds inside. You bring the contents of the box to be appraised by a jeweler, and he tells you what you have found is priceless, there is no amount he can put on what the contents of the box is worth. You are absolutely ecstatic by the news you hear. What is the first thing you do with your treasure?


There are 2 possible options:
1) You take really good care of the box. Since it is deteriorating, corroding and frail, you decide to really invest in it. You spend time cleaning it up really nice, polishing it, reconstructing it, painting it and so on. 
2) You take really good care of the contents in the box. Since it is of priceless worth, you immediately insure it. You know that you want to be covered in any instance; if someone steals it, if it gets lost, ruined or damaged. You are not taking a risk of anything happening to your treasure.  


Which option did you choose?


I think the obvious answer for any person in this scenario would be option number 2.


Now here is the detrimental truth that God has revealed: 


Each and every one of us is actually in this scenario right now. Your physical body is a deteriorating, corroding and frail box that hold a priceless treasure, you. Who you are is not what you look like; who you are is not your body. We are of priceless worth to God. But why are we more concerned with the outer shell then the actual spirit? 


Like the 1st option above says, we invest so much time, energy and money into our bodies. We spend hours working out and toning spend tons of money on all sorts of vitamins and minerals, waste loads of energy obsessing and worrying about how we look and how we perform. Meanwhile we have a priceless treasure sitting inside this dying body, with no insurance of keeping it from eternal harm. 


If we would insure diamonds and jewels, why not insure our souls? Your body is going to die and your soul is going to go somewhere when it does. The truth is, you have been born and there is no way to be unborn. Your life has come into existence and it will stay in existence whether your body does or not. Your soul is on its way somewhere. You can die today- you might actually, considering 268,000 people die each day (wiki answers).


If you died tonight, would you know where you were going? I know you know where your body would go- either in the ground or burned into ashes. But what about you?


What a tragedy it would be to leave this earth and end up somewhere you hadn't planned on going.


When Jesus walked this earth over 2000 years ago (side note, ever really realize B.C actually stands for Before Christ? He may be more significant then you think) He said:


"I am the way, the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." (John 14:6) 


Many people believe that all religions/beliefs lead to the same place (Heaven). Lets get a visual of this. Picture a huge mountain and God standing at the top of it in Heaven. Some people would say any road you take up the mountain (any religion) will lead you to Heaven and God. What if the God on the top of that mountain came down to ground and told you that the mountain was very dangerous filled with wild animals, avalanches and deadly conditions and that there was only one safe way up and He knew the way. Would you follow Him Because that is exactly what God actually did. Jesus came down here and tells us how to get to the Father.  


Gods unending love:


Do you see what Jesus is saying? "No one can get to God, except through Me. I love you and I want to show you the way. I died for you, you can trust me. Follow me." 


What if this was true? Are you willing to pass up on insuring your entry into an eternal destination such as Heaven? Would you pass up on insuring the safety of a priceless treasure you found on a beach?


Jesus brought the best news any ear could hear! That through Him, we can inherit eternal life. Before where there was only speculation and curiosity about the after life, Jesus said "you want to know the truth, here it is." (not exact words). He lived on this earth, died on a cross for many to physically see and rose again with over 500 witnesses. Jesus is the only spiritual influence who claimed to be God Himself. All others claimed to have known God, or have had an encounter with god. Jesus then healed the blind, cured the sick and raised people, including Himself from the grave. 




"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." (John 3:16)


According to God, this is what happens when you put your faith in what Jesus did on the cross: "Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day." (2 Corinthians 4:16)
Do you want to be renewed day by day? Are you tired of the endless pursuit of making yourself "better"? Look to Jesus.


What did Jesus do on the cross? He paid the price for all the sin and disgust in the world. Just look around, I know you know and have possibly experienced the sadness, sickness, worry, hate, evil, etc. here. Jesus took that all upon Himself and nailed it to the cross. Without Him we are slaves to the sin here, never feeling truly fulfilled and complete, always having a piece missing. Do you know what piece I'm talking about? No matter how good things are in life, you just cant seem to be truly fulfilled. Having faith in what God did for you and looking to Jesus to see His sacrifice for you on the cross is what's missing- you don't know what has been done for you, and its time you do.


It's time to stop putting so much time, energy and resources into the dying outside shell and instead insure the eternal destination of the priceless jewels inside. 


Love you all.
Contact me with any questions. I'm here, even if we have never spoken before, just reach out. 

Designer Sex

Hey everyone,

For any male or female who is either confused about sex, or thinks they know everything there is to know about sex, please watch this message.

Even though our culture and the media tell us that sex is simply physical and should be practiced freely between any two people who are in the passion of a moment, there is much more to sex than what is portrayed and drilled into our minds. I think deep down inside we all crave for sex to be something more than just physical, deep down inside we know it is more than just physical.

Click on the link, a video will begin to play immediately ignore that video and instead look where it says "Select a Part" ( bottom left of the page) and click "3", its called "Designer Sex". If you have any more time, watch part 1 as well. This is life changing stuff people!

http://www.northpoint.org/messages/the-new-rules-for-love-sex-and-dating

Let me know if you have any questions after watching.
Lets take our lives into our hands and make changes, just because everyone around us says one thing, doesn't mean we have to follow.

Love,
Nicole

Judgement Day.

Hi, everyone. A lot of people have been nervous about all this talk of Judgment day, which is said to be this Saturday, May 21, 2011, so I thought I would write a blog on the topic. 

First off, I want to ask you all a couple of questions:

Take a second and actually answer both of these.

1) What do you think is going to happen on Judgement day (besides the world beginning to come to an end)? or what is the purpose of a day of judgment, anyway?

2) What are you, yes YOU, prepared to do (spiritually, that is) if Saturday was actually Judgment day? 

To explain the answer to the first question...

The Bible clearly talks about there being a day when Jesus will come back to earth to judge the living and dead and decide what their destination will be for eternity, Heaven or Hell. When this time period starts, there is going to be many signs that show its beginning. For a full list of the signs click here (read the list or skim through it, then return to reading here. *its very important to read the list because the signs are already happening). The world as we know it will come to an end one day. This is the truth. And it is not the truth because I am saying it, who am I anyway, this is the truth because GOD says it and Jesus even came to earth to make sure we heard it clearly. Do we choose to listen, or turn our back on God? That is our own decision, God gave us free will. 

Before I continue, I just want to state really quickly what it means to hear the truth and turn your back on it:

If you are a person who has heard about Jesus, has heard about judgment day, has heard that Jesus is the only way to salvation and to Heaven, and have chosen to either ignore it, or "believe" in Jesus with the words you say but not truly and fully with your heart, it does not mean you are going to be excluded from the judgement, just because you don't believe in Judgment day.

An example to help understand what this means is this:

Lets say a tornado is about to hit us really hard. The news stations take over every TV channel and are warning us that we have only one day to board up our house, get everything prepared, grab our family and evacuate.  If I sat in my house, heard the news but chose to say "Ehh, I don't believe it. The tornado is not gonna come and hit my house. Something like that would never happen on Long Island. I will just stay put right here- I do not believe it will actually happen." Does that mean the tornado would skip over my house because I chose, by my free will, to ignore the warnings and not seek help? NO! I would just wind up dead, a decision I made for myself. Therefore, by choosing not to believe that Judgment day will soon come- you will not and cannot save yourself. Judgment will not be skipped over you simply because you said you do not believe.  

OK so back to the reason why people are saying Judgment day is this Saturday... its all because of a man who was an engineer turned preacher who has studied very deeply the chronology in the Bible and came to HIS OWN conclusion about the date when the world would end. 

The key words here are "HIS OWN", incase it wasn't clear enough lol. Jesus specifically says in the Bible that NO ONE but the Father knows when the day will come. And if Jesus said no one- GOD HIMSELF told us that- that means no one. 

The second question I asked up top was: 

What are you, yes YOU, prepared to do (spiritually, that is) if Saturday was actually Judgment day?

Im not sure of what you answered here, but what I am sure of is this -that you cannot save yourself, not by your own good deeds or good heart or kind soul or yoga or meditation or prayer or religion. You cannot save yourself no matter what you do. If your answer to the question above was something like "I will be going to Heaven because I am a good person, i have never murdered anyone or done anything bad, so I am not worried", or "I am Catholic, (or Protestant, or baptist or Lutheran or Christian....), so I am going to Heaven.", or "I am a devout Jew and follow my religion very closely and follow all the laws given to us by Moses, therefore I will be in Heaven."... I can tell you that (not by my own authority -because I have none- but by the authority of God Almighty!) none of those things can get you to Heaven. Again, you cannot save yourself. 

THAT IS SO HORRIBLE!!!! WHY IS THIS????? I DONT GET IT!

Our good deeds, being a good person, our religion and so on cannot get us to Heaven because, first off, none of us inherently know right from wrong. We live in a society whose leaders came together and decided the laws of what is right and wrong for us to do. Every society in the world has done this. We live by these laws and think they make us righteous, or good people. But all we are is simply good at following rules. And what is right in our society may be wrong in another one, therefore blurring the lines of right and wrong in the first place.

 

For example, in our society it may be wrong to marry more than one person, in another it may be right and considered good. Another example, in our society drugs are illegal, in another smoking drugs is a way to develop a deeper spiritual awareness. Another example, murder is wrong in our culture in all situations except self defense, in another society if one person kills your brother revenge is a right you have, an eye for an eye a tooth for a tooth. We as human beings have no inherit understanding of right from wrong.

Our only true knowledge of right and wrong was given to us by God himself through the 10 Commandments. I am sure you have all heard of the 10 commandments and have maybe dismissed them as "religious stuff" like I did. God, The Father and Creator of Heaven and Earth, gave us 10 things to live by. 10! Thats it! He told us to live by ALL 10 of these and we will be considered righteous in his eyes and worthy of Heaven in his Holy presence. 

Here are the 10 Commandments: (think about how many you live by)

1. You shall have no other gods beside Me.

2. You shall not make to you any graven image. You shall not bow down yourself to them, nor serve them. (this means have no idols- no one above God. An idol is anything you put above God- this could be something as simple your blackberry or as deep as a Buddha or Mother Theresa)

3. You shall not take the name of the Lord your God in vain, for the Lord will not hold him guiltless who takes His name in vain. (Using God, Jesus' name as a curse or out of anger)

4. Remember the sabbath day to keep it holy, six days shall you labor, and do all your work.

5. Honor your father and your mother, that your days may be long upon the land which the Lord your God gives you. (respect your parents)

6. You shall not murder.

7. You shall not commit adultery. (cheat on your spouse)

8. You shall not steal.

9. You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor. (Lie about anyone or to anyone ever)

10.You shall not desire . . . anything that is your neighbor's. (Don't be jealous or envious ever)

 

WHOAAA OK who just read these and pooped their pants?!! ME!! I am literally guilty of almost every single one of these. The truth is EVERY SINGLE PERSON, including YOU, stands guilty right now before God. God told us what to live by- but we all fail. If Judgment day were to be on Saturday we would all be judged to Hell, not Heaven. 

But why I am not having a nervous breakdown right now? One name- JESUS CHRIST.

Ever since the fall of humanity starting with Adam and Eve (read my other blog "getting to know God" for more info on this) we are all full of sin down to the simplest one of -lying or envying. And in Gods eyes sin is sin- whether it is lying or murdering- they are the same in His eyes, they are both sin and equal to him.

Because of all our inequities and our failure to do what is right, God could have destroyed the world long ago and started over again but He chose, because of His endless mercy, to come down to earth, proclaim the truth, pay the price for the sins of humanity on himself, lower himself to the lowest of the lowest place and hang on a cross to make us right with Himself. He told us "The only way to the Father is through the Son". The only way into Heaven with God -is through Jesus who suffered for us.  

We have the choice every day to go on living as if the tornado will never hit your house or to turn and make a decision to be on Gods side. God calls us to forgive any and every single person in our lives who we are angry at. To clean our hearts of the resentment that will rot inside of us if we don't let it go.  Choose to look into the eyes of God and ask Him for forgiveness. Ask him to forgive you for acting like you never needed him and could save yourself. Ask him to forgive you for breaking his Commandments. Ask Him to forgive you for all that you have done that displeased him. Ask him to save you. To come into your heart and take away the sin that sits there. Take away the jealousy, take away the lies, take away the hurt and confusion. Tell him you need him and can do nothing about your own judgment. Cry out to the Lord Jesus. And raise your hands in surrender. 

Stop reading and do it right now if you feel it in your heart.

Jesus is our salvation. The answer to every question we have. He is the way, the truth and the life. He is the way to Heaven. We are unworthy without Him. We cannot save ourselves, but JESUS has saved us- will we accept His gift? When you forgive others, ask for forgiveness and call him into your heart he will blow you away. He will take each one of your insecurities and issues and wash them away from you. he will give you salvation. "Ask and you shall receive" He tells us. I can proudly say JESUS IS MY LORD AND SAVIOR AND HE HAS CHANGED ME FROM THE INSIDE OUT. I AM MADE NEW BECAUSE HE HAS SUFFERED FOR ME. I AM NO LONGER AFRAID TO DIE BECAUSE I KNOW I WILL FINALLY BE WITH MY TRUE LOVE.

Please email me if you have any questions or want to know more about Jesus and how to have a relationship with him, or even if your just confused about all this or worried about Judgment day. I am here to help. Please don't be shy.  nfonovich@gmail.com I love you all!!!!!!!!!!

Unanswered prayers

Maybe many of you have tried praying in the past and have given up because you didn't get an answer or because you are unsure of how you would even get an answer... I know it may seem like you are sending out empty prayers and it can be kind of discouraging. There are a couple of things that are important to know before turning your back on prayer..

First, ask yourself, are you a child of God?

Many of us, I'm not excluding myself here, have forgotten completely about God until we are in a time of need. I am not condemning anyone, just want to bring something to our attention. Think about that friend you have who only calls when they need something.. how annoying and hurtful is that person? 

We must realize that this is what we often do to God! We want to use him for our selfish needs- like that rude friend does to us. We ignore him, don't want any relationship with him, and then we call on him to help us.

Some of us don't even acknowledge that there is a God and still say things like, "Thank God" or "Pray for the troops" or "Pray for Japan". Again, I'm not condemning anyone here but can we imagine how insulting that is to God, the creator of everything! Imagine this for a second, someone you know is choking and you save their life. Literally, they would be dead if it wasn't for you.. then they turn around and spit on you and disgrace you and embarrass you in front of everyone. They deny you even helped them and turn their back on you. A month passes by and that same person is in need of your help again. They plead with you to help them, and you do because you forgave them but they only disgrace you and abandon you again. Then they need help finding a job, or meeting a spouse or getting over a sickness so they ask you to help them again.. This happens over and over and over again... That's kind of what we do to God when we deny his existence and then pray to him when we need something.. it gets old!

Then there is the other situation, where we may forget about God all together and then when something goes wrong in our lives we scream "WHY GOD!!" and put all the blame on him. How dare we! The gall! haha but seriously are we crazy to do that?!

All God wants from us -is US. He wants you to love him because he loves you so much. He is starved for your attention, and there you are just ignoring him until your desperate. The beautiful thing is, though, Gods forgiveness is as wide as the East is from the West, and he is waiting for you to just turn to him and say sorry for using him and calling on him only when you were desperate. Sorry for not caring to know him, but expecting him to do everything for you at the blink of an eye. Sorry for blaming him when something in your life goes wrong, when he is never the cause of it. The moment we take notice of our sins- (as Christians call these faults)- and humble ourselves enough to ask Jesus (Read my past blog to understand Jesus) to forgive us and then trust with all our hearts that he CAN and WILL forgive us, we become children of God, rather then strangers. 

When you are a child of God, you can start to build your relationship with him. Your prayers are no longer shots in the dark but rather communication between you and the Creator of the Universe. 

I think it is important to remember that we are not just saying with our mouths "Im sorry, God" but rather feeling this fully in our hearts. We can all understand what it feels like to need someone's forgiveness and be desperate for it. We have experienced this feeling in life before with friends or family. If you feel like you cant connect with God in order to be sorry, like you can with a person - Just look to Jesus- the One who saved us all (read my last blog). Apologize to him, from the bottom of your heart. When you are truly sorry and change your views and accept God into your heart rather then rejecting him, he will forgive you.  

When this repentance takes place between you and Jesus, you are given a gift. This gift is called the Holy Spirit, it is the Spirit of God which lives within us and guides us like a light at our feet. If we don't have this gift from God, we cannot hear his voice so clearly. (Read more about the Holy Spirit in my last blog). 

After establishing a relationship with Jesus, the walls have fallen down and the communication between you and God is wide open. Think about it, talking to God or praying without truly acknowledging him and wanting to know him is like locking someone in a soundproof room and then standing outside the room and talking to the closed door. OPEN THE DOOR PEOPLE! Let God in! Or rather, you walk into the presence of God- and wow how beautiful it is to be there.

Getting to know God.

Hi guys! I know I keep encouraging everyone to open up and invite Jesus into our hearts, and I have described the effect that this has had on my life, but I have not yet explained why Jesus is so important. We know (or maybe we don't know yet) Jesus is the Son of God, who rose from the dead. But many may wonder, as did I, what this even means. So here is the story of Jesus Christ, which will hopefully explain how and why we are so beautifully transformed when we accept Christ as our savior. Christ as our savior? I know--- that statement sounds weird and "religious" so our automatic reaction is to turn our attention away. I understand this because maybe I would have wanted to do the same before I knew God. But! for anyone who is on the search for truth in life- please stay tuned and keep an open, receptive mind and heart. The details of His story, since I am writing in my own words may not be exact, but it is not the small details that are important. What is important is what God has done for us, through Jesus, and what happens in our lives when we accept this truth.

The start
When God made the world and people, He did not intend for us to turn away from Him.

Wait a minute- How do we know that God made the world or people? What about evolution? the big bang theory? Well, everyone is entitled to believe in evolution -as I once did too, but anyone who has done some soul searching will soon find out (if you haven't already) that there most definitely exists a higher power much greater than our tiny selves, who is not a part of any man made theory. Some of us may think of this higher power as God, "the universe", "our higher selves"... and so on..

I feel that the acknowledgment of a higher power is a good first step. The only problem with viewing the higher power as something other than God is, there is no Jesus without God. And Jesus is the key. What we often tend to reject, or find “narrowminded”, is the FACT that the only way to know God is through Jesus...stay tuned. 

New age
I was talking with a good friend the other day about new age thinking. She has been into the "power of positive thinking"-thing for a while and has read many books on the surrounding subjects. She was confessing she was beginning to have a difficult time truly exhibiting the "positive energy.." ideas put forth in these books and maintaining this outlook day after day. After talking for a bit she had a revelation and concluded that the issue she was having with new age thinking was, that a major contradiction continuously comes up in each of the books she reads. Almost all the books seem to talk about surrendering to the higher power of the "universe" (or some other energy along those lines), but at the same time having the power to change reality within ourselves. 

I could definitely understand this issue because I had the same one in my past. How are we supposed to surrender, yet at the same time be in control? Is there a higher power or are we the higher power? It can't be both. It doesn't make sense.. Something is missing. Jesus is the missing piece here. There is a powerful, marvelous, mysterious reason why Jesus is the only way to God. By understanding Jesus' story, which I will explain in a bit, things should start to connect and make sense.

Opinion vs. truth
Before getting into the story of Jesus, I think we should all first take a step back and understand the difference between popular belief vs. truth. Although this seems to be common sense, a lot of people forget to distinguish this difference when it comes to spirituality. Just because a group of people, or you or I as individuals, have a certain belief, it does not necessarily mean the belief truth. For example, people long ago believed that the sun was a god and they worshiped it daily. Because they rejected the GOD, the one higher supreme power of the universe. They chose to ignore that God had to have made the sun, and that he is not a sun (or any of the other man made "god" that people worship). Today we understand the purpose of the sun and know it is not a god. Does the fact that millions of people once proclaimed and believed with all their hearts that the sun was a higher power, actually give it any power at all? No. If every person ever born believed in Santa Clause would that make him real? Just because we all believed? No. (Sorry if I just ruined Christmas for anyone :/ cats out of the bag. Santa isn't real.) Opinion or belief does not create truth, it is the opposite, actually.

This idea of belief vs. truth exists very widely today. As Americans we have tendencies to want to do what is best for ourselves and what works for our lives, we like convenience. We sometimes even avoid the truth or blatantly lie to ourselves because the truth doesn't fit well in our lives. We do this with relationships, jobs, and everyday activities, like eating. For example, we may know in our hearts that our relationship is a bad one, but we convince ourselves it will work and things will get better. Inside we know the truth, but facing the truth will lead us to have to change something, and change isn't always convenient. Another example; we may know that eating unhealthy food will eventually cause health problems, but we will lie to ourselves and tell ourselves "this one cookie won't hurt", and we do this over and over again. When the truth is not convenient for us, we sometimes choose to disregard it. We especially do this when it comes to our spirituality.

We shop around through the many different spiritual beliefs until we find one that works smoothest in our lives. The one that will best fit our egos. Maybe we pick the simplest belief so we don't have to put much thought into it, maybe we pick the belief that we think will get us rich and attract money to us through laws of the attraction, maybe we just chose the most popular belief, the new fad in Hollywood, or the belief that we were taught in our households growing up. Maybe its all just way too complicated so we choose to not have any belief at all and call ourselves atheist.

We may say "I believe this", or "I believe that" or "I believe in riencarnation", "I believe in ghosts", "I believe in heaven", "I believe in myself"...  as if saying "I believe.." makes it real truth!  We understand that we cant say "I believe in the tooth fairy" to make her real, yet we think we can do this when it comes to spirituality. Its actually really silly! And I definitely don't exclude myself here because I had previously done this. We think that there cant be ONE way, because there are so many “ways” (other options-not from God but from man), so we pick the one that we feel is best for us to believe in.

Of course not every person just chooses to settle for the most convenient belief or create their own belief. Some people choose to search, seek and grow; using their personal experiences in order to further their understanding of life. It is these people, who I believe will all eventually find the solid truth, which lies only in Jesus.

Now, just because Jesus is my personal belief, that does not make Him real either. Who am I, anyway? I'm just a human among many. All I have are my experiences and my words. And my words mean nothing! But the words of The God of all, mean everything. And I invite you to be open to experience the truth found in God and His Word for your selves. 

OK so we understand now that we have no power to change what is truth vs what is lie. We can only make a conscious decision to listen to what God had to say while he was here on earth. Since he is pure, and almighty, he is the only one who can speak truth.

Jesus Christ
So, who is Jesus? How do we know he is real? and why do we care anyway?

Let's go back to the statement: When God created the world and people he did not intend for us to turn away from him. Now, imagine God for a second, a Spirit in the sky, perfectly content and happy, yet wanting others to see his glory and share in it with him. Maybe we can understand this by imagining if someone gave us a ticket to paradise... Although paradise is absolutely beautiful no matter what, how much better is paradise when you have someone to share it with? Would you even really want to go alone? By sharing his paradise, God sees himself Glorified in his own creation. He can only hope to see Himself or Jesus (one in the same), glorified because only those two powers are perfect in this world. He doesn’t want to see me glorified, or any other human, priest, pope, mother Theresa, because they are not PERFECT like Jesus. Gods love lies within himself, and is targeted at all of us.

...So, God created the world and people. (There is a lot more to the story here, but I'll keep it as short and simple as possible. If anyone wants more detail -just ask). God loved his creations so much, that he made us with free will. He knew he would have no satisfaction in creating little robots that were programmed without thought to just worship him all day. He wanted us to want to love him. And he wants to be the one to pick us up off the ground when we fall. He wants us to desire Him to be our everything. So he gave us the choice to do as we pleased. And starting from the first people ever created, we didn't chose God.

Adam and Eve
Now, Im sure you have heard the story of Adam and Eve before and have possibly decided to throw it out the window, like I did when it didn’t fit into what was cool or popular. Growing up, I was taught many bible stories, but could never really picture them being true. I dismissed the stories as sort of fairy tales. Now, though, I would put my hands in the fire for any of the stories because my heart has been transformed and the blinders have been lifted off my eyes. So, if you have heard the story of Adam and Eve before, please try to view it now with new eyes. You have a choice: believe a theory, or accept what Gods words are, and embrace them as your own. 

The first people God creates are a man, Adam and a woman, Eve. He gives them a beautiful paradise to enjoy. They are so blissful and in pure peace, because they are in Gods direct loving presence. They are naked, but don't even realize it because their hearts are focused on God, rather than themselves. As they are walking through their beautiful paradise, God tells them they can enjoy fruit from any of the trees he has made for them, except one. He says that the one tree that is off limits will cause them anguish and he is protecting them from any sort of pain. 

Free will
Since God gave people free will, free will involves making decisions for yourself. When Adam and Eve are fully enveloped in Gods light, they have no desire to eat from the forbidden tree. This means there is no actual decision making involved, which would mean they don't have free will. So, since God is fair and just, he allowed for there to be a opposing voice, (this is the evil in the world, aka Satan) speaking to Adam and Even just as clearly as God had. He allowed for Satan, in the form of a serpent, to sit in the forbidden tree and offer an opposing view on the fruits of the tree, therefore giving Adam and Even the option to choose God or evil. Remember, without the serpent, Adam and Eve would be essentially robots.

The serpent talks to Eve and tells her that God is hiding special powers from them and if they eat the fruit of the forbidden tree, they can have these special powers. Now, Adam and Even knew that God was the One who created them and they could clearly feel all the happiness and beauty surrounding them, but they were faced with a decision; to believe the serpent or to trust God. They sadly chose to eat the fruit of the forbidden tree and believe the deceiver. 

*Our Issue Today
The minute they ate the fruit, they suddenly became concerned with the self. Do not miss this. If you do not know, or have rejected the story of Adam and Eve, this is a good reason why we need to reconsider! This story speaks to us directly and points out our present abandonment to God. When they turned from God they were no longer free and careless in his presence, but instead worried and uncomfortable. For the first time, they actually realized they were naked and felt ashamed. They became self-conscious. 

Today, we can relate with these feelings of being self-conscious. We are constantly concerned with the way we appear to the world. We even undergo major surgeries to change our appearances because we are so self conscious! This goes all the way back to Adam and Eve, who chose to turn from God and therefore step out of His brilliant light and into the darkness of Satan, who comes through for us today as the ego, deceiver, accuser and tempter. Our current focus as people is typically only on ourselves, unless we choose to step into the brilliance of Gods light, which washes out all of the self-absorbed feelings. It is through Jesus, that we are forgiven and able to step back into Gods glorious light. 

Right from the first creation of people, we didn't chose God! That is why today, it is not the common or natural thing for us to do. We choose Satan over God and still continuously do it. We often even oppose the idea of God, and "convince ourselves" (its actually Satan-the ultimate deceiver/ego convincing us) that God isn't worth all of our love and devotion.  

Take some time to digest this, and lets fast forward.
This is where the story of beautiful Jesus begins.

How God saves us
God, being fully spirit, having no physical body -male nor female, decides he will come to earth himself, to pay the debt for our betrayal of him and also lead us back to his love. He does this by being born on earth into the human flesh. God is omnipresent, meaning he is present everywhere at the same time. This allows him to be the God of the universe and also be spiritually in the body of a human, Jesus -which means 'The Lord saves'. We need to think about Jesus as the skin that holds together an eternal presence who created the universe. He is not just a man, but the only way God could walk on “out turf” as if he had legs like ours.

God being God, could have zapped himself to earth in the form of a king, sat on a thrown, and ordered everyone around. But! Since our God is a humble God, he instead was born to this earth as a newborn child. And to a poor mother, to say the least. God wanted to show us that this life on earth is not about money or riches, it is about loving God, and loving each other as God loves us. Jesus' mothers name is Mary, and I would love to talk more about her, but I'll try to keep the story as simple as possible (just ask if you want more details, though!) Basically to sum it up, I will just say that Mary was a virgin when she conceived Jesus. This fact should not make us stumble; it should be clear by this point that we are only human, and everything is possible with God.

Now when Gods spirit entered into a human body, he too felt all of the temptations and lies from Satan that we, as humans, deal with everyday. In fact, Satan knew Jesus was God in the flesh, so he fired all his ammo at him every day! Since Jesus was human, he had the same options that we all have. He could choose to trust God, or fall into temptation, like Adam and Eve did and we all do.

Jesus' story
Jesus was raised like a normal child, yet throughout his childhood, his mother would often find him in the temple "praying to my father" as he would say. When Jesus got older, around the age of 30, he traveled from town to town teaching everyone of the love and forgiveness of our God. He also taught them how God intended for us to live; full of love for God and love and acceptance for each other. 

At first, many people didn't care to listen to Jesus; they knew of him as a poor kid from Nazareth, knew him as a child, knew his mother and didn't see how he could know anything about God. But once people started to listen to him speak, they started to see that he viewed life much differently than they did. For example, if someone steals something from you or hurts you in any way, you may dislike that person. Jesus would speak about how easy it is to love the people who love you, but how it takes a godly person to love the people who hate and hurt you. People loved this new way to look at life and one another.   

The more people listened to Jesus, they could see something so beautiful in his spirit and they believed him when he said he was the Son of God. Only when they believed him, would he show them the miracles he was capable of and heal people right in front of their eyes. He would cure the blind and heal the dying and more. Jesus' purposes from God the Father were not to walk around and show people miracles in order for them to believe, this would again defeat the purpose of free will. If people see proof, they have no decision to make. Proof is proof. Gods purpose was to give people the option to believe Jesus or not to, just like we still have the option today.  It is not about proof or our "God experiments" turning out right. It is purely about faith. God made it so much easier and better off for us. All we have to do is believe in him and the work he has done and is still doing.

I can tell you from personal experience that since opening my heart to Jesus and believing he is the Son of God, I have seen miracles in front of my face. I would love to share some, if anyone is interested just ask.  

Religion
Since many people loved Jesus and all he stood for, they decided to follow him in what he was saying. This angered the religious leaders of the towns, called Pharisees. Pharisees were robed "priests" so to say, who created their own truth by illusions, and created "holy" ritual to follow. The tried to make themselves holy before God by their own ways. God used the Pharisees to show us how religion is just useless ritual and law without Jesus.

This idea of religious people still continues today. Many of you may know a very religious person who thinks they know everything there is to know about God and speaks of Gods love, yet showcases little love in their own hearts. This is why religion and humans often corrupts Gods purity. God cares nothing about knowing a lot of information about him, it is about knowing him personally and therefore exhibiting his love through your life. 

Anyway, these Pharisees were getting really angry that Jesus was claiming to be the Son of God and people were listening to him, instead of them. They were jealous and outraged and often tried to catch Jesus in a lie or test him on his knowledge of God. They always wound up looking silly in the end.

The passion of Christ
Eventually, the Pharisees became so angered by Jesus, they decided they wanted him dead because he was shining light on their flawed belief system which made them incredibly intimidated by him. They all got together and gathered anyone who thought Jesus was a liar, and went to Pontius Pilate to ask permission to kill Jesus (there is much more detail here but I am being sparce) Pilate, he told them they had no evidence of Jesus ever doing anything wrong, so they would not be allowed to kill Him. This angered the Pharisees so they told Pilate that they were going to riot and cause absolute chaos if he didn't allow for them to kill Jesus. Even though he knew Jesus was a good man, and his wife even told him not to allow Jesus to be killed (she had a dream about Jesus), he didn't want craziness through the states, so he said they could do as they wanted with Jesus.

Since Jesus is the Son of God, He knew that this was His fate. He knew He was going to be ceased and killed. He understood that His purpose in life was to come to earth to personally take on the sinful nature in all of us since the first creation of man and women, and therefore allow us to feel what it is like to live in Gods light again. Jesus was to pay the price of all the sins of the world, past, present and future on the cross. Since God is fair, he chose not to just erase the fact that we chose to turn our backs on him, someone had to pay the price, and he decided to pay it himself. He payed for what we did, and did it by using his own body and blood sacrifice; a sacrifice we people can understand, and physically see, so we would have no question what was going on. 

Jesus was in a garden at night praying to God for strength because he knew what awaited him. He was already starting to bare the burdens of suffering for our sins, and being tempted by Satan to escape by a different death, and was literally sweating out blood from his pores. The pain and burden was so severe for his human nature, but he took it all in order to free us.

While Jesus was in the garden, the officials ceased Him and dragged Him to be locked up and than crucified. When all the people who loved Jesus heard this, they were distraught. Jesus had taught them so much about Gods love, and the were finally free from the grips of temptation, worry, anxiety and all of the feelings that Satan holds on us. Jesus' followers wanted this same freedom for all of their future generations as well, but didn't know how this would be if Jesus was going to be killed. They wondered, if people didn't know Jesus, how could they know God?

The Pharisees hired men to beat Jesus so, so horribly, with chains and whips and knives till his skin was completely shredded up. They did this in front of a crowd of people and Jesus' mother Mary had to watch her Son bare all of this. She tried to go and comfort him, but they wouldn't let her. They put a crown made of thorns on his head and mocked him saying "now look at the king, the so called son of God!". All this time Jesus endured the pain without even cursing a word to the men. After the beatings, they made Jesus carry the cross they would crucify him on up a hill and whipped him till he got there. Once at the top, they nailed his wrists and ankles to the cross and slit a hole in the side of his ribs with a knife. They pulled the cross upright on the hill for every person to see.

The Pharisees mocked Him saying "If you are the son of God why don't you come down from that cross". The whole time though, he was forgiving the people who were doing this to him at this exact moment. While a few mocked, all the others cried so hard because they knew of his pure love for us. After long, painful hours, Jesus died. The moment He died, the whole earth shook, and lightning and thunder roared. A banner that hung over the hill where Jesus died, snapped in half. All the Pharisees were petrified because they knew just then that Jesus really is the Son of God. And that they had just killed and tortured the Son of God!

The resurrection
Eventually, a friend of Jesus took his body off the cross, wrapped it tightly in shrines, put it in a tomb and closed it with a massive rock. Three days later, Jesus' friends went to say a prayer by the tomb, and found that the rock had been moved and the body of Jesus was gone. Automatically, they assumed the Pharisees had stolen his body. But when they stepped inside the tomb, they found the shrines laying perfectly where his body should have been, as if they body had evaporated. They were very confused and left the tomb feeling uneasy. They ran to tell Jesus' mother what had happened. As they were all together, Jesus walked into where they were gathering. He was risen from the dead! As soon as they saw Jesus, a flame appeared above each of their heads.

The gift of the Holy Spirit
The flame was the Spirit of God being born into the bodies of all the believers of Jesus, for all generations to come. Now we can walk with Jesus always, if we chose to have faith in him. And when we do this, his Spirit becomes part of us and nothing can ever take it away from us. No person, no circumstance, no tragedy, no lostness. Our flesh (bodies and soul), on the other hand, can be taken from us any moment; we can lose our minds, have anxiety disorders, become depressed, paralyzed, diseased and so on. When we live without Jesus, we are in a vulnerable state at all times, nothing in life is certain. The Holy Spirit when awakened through believing Christ died for YOU, is untouchable. We are stamped with the Holy Spirit, the seal of approval. Ephesians 1:13 states: "And now you have all heard the truth, the Good News that God saves you. And when you believed in Christ, he identified you as his own by giving you the Holy Spirit, whom he promised long ago." The spirit is ours, freeing us from concerns of body and soul, left to just BE. And when we can just BE present in the Spirit, we live blessed life's because we get to live like Jesus Christ, nice and close to God with no hold of any temptation on us at all . Not ruled by a desire of any sort. Just FREE.  :)

Jesus rising from the dead was meant to show us that death is not the end. He proved to us that he is the SAVIOR of everyone, and death has lost its sting. He fulfilled all the requirements of being the savior. He helps us to see life eternally, rather than just thinking this world is so important. The world is not important, the people of the world are. Today we focus more on money and things and selfishness rather than people.

Absolute and complete freedom
We need to awaken to the truth. We are so close! We know in our hearts there is more to life. We try and try to live lives full of purpose; doing good, being balanced, being positive, being healthy... but all we can do is try, we cant ever just BE. This is where the problem with self-help comes in. I have been there -reading the books about self improvement, trying to remember all of the things I must do to be a happy, balanced person. It is just too much trying, too much remembering, never coming naturally. Because without Jesus Christ, we can only live by body and soul, disconnected from God. Our focuses, even when they are supposed to be on others, on family, on friends on inner happiness... are still for the most part only on ourselves. We want to make others feel good so we can feel good! Its not our fault though, we are lost, and confused trying to just feel HAPPY! But the motive is all wrong without Jesus.

We trying to live righteously but  it is impossible to do so perfectly and effortlessly. Without God, we are only living for the flesh, the physical body and soul part of us. But the body and soul will die and be buried with this earth and whatever is than left in us will be doomed to eternal separation from God (aka Hell). The Holy Spirit of God will go on, though. We can only be truly and naturally selfless and free when we stop living for the body and soul and awaken the Spirit, by accepting Jesus Christ as our personal savior. He is the key. (You can read more info on body, soul and spirt in my first blog- "The search for our true selves").

Over 500 people witnessed seeing Jesus crucified and then seeing Him alive and resurrected.

You can look up "the real face of Jesus" and see how the shrine that covered Jesus face has been recovered and scientists were able to see what His true face looks like! Its amazing.

You can also see what happened to Jesus on earth for yourselves, if you rent the movie "The Passion of The Christ".

We are baring a burden we were never meant to bare. Jesus has already bared it all, all we need to do is acknowledge him and what he has done for us on the cross. Accept that he died on the cross to save YOU from the hurt of this life. He is our Savior. He saved me from any lostness and freed me, I am a witness.


I love you all so much! God bless.
You have to read this blog after. Its so important and a quick read.

The love we ache for.

This blog is my opinion on relationships and break-ups. Every person has different experiences, but this is what I have learned throughout mine. If anyone has a story they would like to share, or another opinion, please feel free to message me. :) 

OK I want to start off by asking:
What do we seek when we enter into a relationship? 

I'm sure the answer to this question varies from person to person, but I think the overwhelming response would be love. When we enter into a relationship, ultimately we are seeking love. We all long to love and to be loved.

Falling in love

...And what an amazing feeling it is to fall in love! 

Doesn't it seem like every care in the world starts to lift off our shoulders? And many the concerns in our lives that once brought on stress or sadness, seem to become less important and less of a problem? Maybe falling in love feels like this because we have someone to share our burdens with and no longer have to do it alone, or maybe its because love distracts us from our burdens in the first place. There is a certain freedom that we all feel when we fall in love. It just feels like we are more complete and fulfilled. 

Falling out of love
Unfortunately though, not all relationships last forever. Sometimes things in a relationship start to go in the opposite direction... and the feelings that were once so wonderful, start to become toxic. The relationship that once brought us freedom, now makes us feel trapped. This is one of the hardest truths to face... and many of us choose not to face it at all. I think this is why people say "love is blind"... It seems in so many cases, we would rather put up with all the huge issues (that we put off as being small), than end the relationship. Sometimes even if the relationship makes us miserable, we cling to it as if we need it to breathe. 

Why is it that even if we know deep inside we are not meant to be with the person, and even if we were the ones who broke it off in the first place, we still feel such a tragic loss? Like a piece of us is missing? I believe the reason we hurt so bad is not because of the person we are loosing (even though we may think it is), we hurt because we are saying goodbye to feeling of being in love. 

Intimate love
We all yearn to love and be loved intimately. When I say intimately I don't mean sexually, that is a misconception. Intimacy can be characterized by: A close or warm, deeply personal relationship. Personal, meaning love directed towards only us, love just for ourselves not to have to share with anyone. I believe we are created to desire intimate love. A love that is our own. A love just for ____________(your name here). ;) I feel this is the reason we hurt so bad when breaking up with a person, even when we know it is for the best. We feel we are completely cutting off our line of intimate love. The truth is though, in most cases, the intimate love we are seeking from the relationship has already been diminished and we are just holding onto the remains. 

I have done this more than once in my past... 

Past love

I was once in a relationship that started off full of love and passion, as relationships always start off. After about 2 years or so, we started to fight. Looking back, I can clearly see why we were fighting so much. I had this feeling inside that started to come up when the feeling of falling madly in love had passed, and I was left wanting more. I would complain about the relationship that he wasn't doing enough.. that I wanted more of his time and attention.. that I didn't feel he loved me like he used to.. and so on. No matter what he did, I still couldn't feel what I wanted to feel (who knows what it was I even wanted to feel). I started to think maybe I wanted to meet other people? or wanted to be free and not tied down? But I'm pretty sure back then I put the blame on my boyfriend, saying he changed and I needed some time. :-/ I'm pretty sure I initiated a break that he was against. After only a little bit of time on the break, I found myself missing him and wanting to be back together. 

I understand how back then I thought taking a break (and maybe meeting someone new, or kissing someone else) would fix a feeling I had inside, but it didn't --so I ran back to him. In the immediate beginning of getting back together everything was great. I felt that intimate love again and was satisfied. But this feeling was very brief, and the relationship started to go back to how it was before the break. Our trust was diminishing and the same problems we had before we took the break were coming back. We tried and tried to work out our differences for almost another year! But inside it felt like all the intimate love from the beginning of the relationship was gone and the "love" that as left, was empty and selfish. 

The struggle

Eventually, after being so hurt and broken for a while, I prayed to God for help and I had an epiphany about the relationship and finally felt free to move on. This required some faith, though. (The full details of this are in my other blog "My Story".)

OK so what's the deal here?
How can we be freed of this want for intimate love, if we can only get it from someone else? Doesn't that make us constantly dependent (without even knowing it) on another person to fulfill our personal desires? Doesn't that make love selfish?! ....

It seems to make sense that if we want to love and feel loved we would look to another person. The truth that I have come to realize is, we cannot (well, me at least) have blossoming, beautiful, free, fun relationships if our partner is our only source of intimate love. If we do this, we become dependent on the other person in the relationship. We need them to feel intimately loved. A relationship should never be based on need, but want! We should want to be in the relationship, not feel like we need it to be to feel complete. When the relationship shifts from want to need, the life begins to be drained from the relationship and it is no longer fun! We constantly feel like someone is depending on us. I don't know about you guys, but when I get married I want the relationship with my spouse to be a beautiful, carefree, fun, loving relationship, not a needy, "typical nagging wife, beer drinking husband" relationship. (Ending up in one of these relationships used to be one of my worst fears actually lol).

Present love
And I have truly found beautiful love in my current relationship. When I first met my boyfriend Charlie, I knew there was something so special and wonderful about him. The was something different about the dynamic between him and I that I had never experienced with any other guy I had dated. I think he told me he loved me after like 3 weeks of knowing each other lol. But anyway that's besides the point...the point is, even after feeling such an intimate, beautiful love with Charlie and him helping me to grow and be a better person, that thing inside me started to creep up. It wasn't like we were fighting or anything at all..it was just this feeling of not being content. It was telling me I needed to figure something out about myself and separate from the relationship for a bit. Although my friends thought I was crazy to separate from someone who seemed perfect for me, I had this feeling in my soul that scared me. It was as if I could ruin the best relationship of my life if I didn't figure out what was wrong with me. I told Charlie I needed to find myself for the benefit of us. Because I valued our relationship so much, and I could see a future with Charlie, I didn't want to risk me ruing it down the line. And I never wanted it to get to a point where our relationship would be one of those typical, annoying relationships I described before. 

Future love
Charlie understood and at this point in time, when we first separated, was when I joined yoga (you can read about my personal journey in the blog "My Story").  I thought yoga, meditation and new age reading like "The Secret" and "The Power of Now" were the answers to my problems. I wont go into detail because my other blog is all about this, but it wasn't the answer. At this point in time I hadn't really been talking to or seeing Charlie, but little did I know that as I was on a journey of digging deeper into myself, so was he, AND we were on the same path without even knowing it. As my journey continued, after traveling to Europe and so on, I did find myself when I found Jesus! It just so happens that Charlie did the same thing! Or maybe Jesus found us, I don't know, maybe he calling us all along. But separately, Charlie and I both developed a deep relationship with God, through Jesus. Can you image how fun and crazy it was to start talking again and realize we had both discovered something so, so, so wonderful? Something that finally made complete sense, Truth about life. Can you imagine, two people who rarely spoke of God, being transformed, separately, so that our hearts are now set on fire for Christ!? A miracle if you ask me. But then again, now I understand all things are possible with God. 

We both entered back into our relationship feeling complete as individuals because we were fully and intimately loved by God. This freed the relationship of any underlying needs and our love blossomed so beautifully. Our relationship is such a blessing to me, I could cry just thinking about it. We love each other so, so intimately (not sexually) but there is a freedom in our love, not a desperate need. I could live my life in a cardboard box with him and be completely satisfied. I could get married and have no wedding at all, but be in complete bliss. I could go on forever about this too... but I'll stop now lol. The point is, our relationship has become something I never could have imagined... and I really thought it was special in the beginning! Wow, I had no idea how great God is and what He can do when you let Him.

God's love
It is true that God is the answer for most problems in our lives, but we choose to forget about Him or ignore Him. I am not excluding myself here. For so long God was right in front of my face but I chose to look else where. It is like we are deceived by the ego (evil) which tells us God is not real or God is a joke. But! God is love. God's love is intimate love. He loves each of us personally and individually. 

To try to get a visual of this and relate God's love to relationship; imagine God's love as an endless stream of water. We are thirsty, and either we can't find the stream or we don't know it exists, so we take a glass of water brought to us by another person (our bf/gf...). The water runs out, and we are thirsty again. (P.S. *At times the other person could be bringing us toxic water, lol ie tainted love, but we drink it anyway) Another persons love may not always be pure, unconditional and everlasting, but God's is. We should go directly to the stream to satisfy our thirst day after day (and lead others there too!) This leaves each of us feeling absolute love and also fills any voids we may feel inside. Just like a stream never runs out of water, Gods love never runs out. 

When we allow ourselves to fill up on Gods intimate love, than our relationships with people are no longer means to an end, or ways to temporarily fill something that we are missing. Relationships then become completely fun and built on values of selflessness because we no longer NEED another person to feel whole, but instead can just enjoy the relationship and experience absolute freedom and joy.

Good news
The good part is, if you are suffering from an ended relationship (or any other issue for that matter), God will use your weakness to help you realize your need for Him. Maybe that is a concept that is hard to understand, but just know that this difficult time can be a reminder that God is here to help, just ask.

OK, so how do we get to know God, if we never met Him before, never spoke to Him and have no idea what or who He is? In a book called "Radical", David Platt, a Christian, explains it perfectly. 

In the book, David tell a true story about a time he was sitting outside a Buddhist temple in Indonesia. He was engaged in a conversation with a Muslim and a Buddhist leader. They were discussing how all religions are fundamentally the same and only superficially different. One of the leaders said "We may have different views about small issues but when it comes down to essential issues each of our religions are the same."David listened for a while and then they asked him what he thought. He said "It sounds as though you both picture God (or whatever you call god) at the top of a mountain. It seems as if you believe that we are all at the bottom of the mountain, and I may take one route up the mountain, you may take another, but in the end we will all end up in the same place." They smiled as David spoke and then they replied "Exactly! You understand!" Then David leaned in and said "Now let me ask you a question. What would you think if I told you that the God at the top of the mountain actually came down to where we are? What would you think if I told you that God doesn't wait for people to find their way to him, but instead he comes to us?" The Buddhist and the Muslim thought for a moment and then said "That would be great." and David replied, "Let me introduce you to Jesus Christ."

The truth.
There is only one truth in the world. I am not here to be a lawyer for Jesus Christ, but I am a witness! I only have my experiences, just as all of us do. I have lived this and seen His miracles throughout my life and know there are many more to come. I have been transformed by His love and my life has become a cherished gift. So here is my story of love, my explanation of love, and a description of how God loves us. We know that LOVE is His language, and God IS love. We know that God loves us so much that He came down to earth, as Jesus Christ. We need this truth and knowledge, because it wont come to us by sitting on a rock. We need to experience pain and weakness sometimes in order to see our need for God. We need to share our stories with others, so we can all be awakened and dance in the freedom! :) I understand how painful it is to break up with someone, and the hurt is strong --but God is stronger!  Don't we want pure, true, selfless love in our lives? If we seek it from Jesus first, all else will be added to us. :) So I would encourage all those who are having a hard time with relationships or anything at all, to go to the stream of Gods love and drink it up! Pick up a book or listen to a YouTube video, watch a movie about Jesus... anything. All you need is the desire and want to know Him and He will guide you, just ask and have faith.

I love you all soo much!!!